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[01 Sep 2006|02:15am] |
so everything i thought about eddie was wrong.
over the past few whatever its been,
we've grown to have a full time relationship.
and i wouldnt have it any other way.
im finally starting to feel happy again.
like genuine happy,
like how i was with ray.
im leaving to see him on wednesday night with alex,
we're going out there for his parents wedding party and what not.
and alex gets to meet jeff.
im so excited.
we've been dating for almost a month.
im sucha rebel.
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[11 Aug 2006|12:22pm] |
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so today some of the ny kids are coming down,
so fucking excited.
im glad to know i have friends who are willing to travel so far to come hangout with me for just a few hours.
seriously,
my friends are better than yours.
so i also have a "boyfriend" from chicago.
his name is eddie,
and hes a hottass ahah.
but for some reason i think hes got a girlfriend?
oh well,
leaving for chicago on sunday to go see him,
hopefully itll be fun <333333
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[29 Jul 2006|12:33am] |
ughhz.
so
yeah
im lonely as fuck
i really want a boyfriend right about now.
i dont even know what to do with myself anymore.
ive been looking at all the old comments ray used to leave me and it brings a tear to my eye.
Mar 21, 2005 6:48 PM
i love you!!.....no one else really does........im sorry ......yuo my dear = the awsomely bestestfulnesss beautifulestness greatest girl ever..i couldnt ask for anythign more..
May 25, 2005 11:44 AM
guess who loves el laine elyse gilson/...
huh
huh
i know you know... nope wrong .. wrong again..
raymond loves you and only him. none else loves you
Jun 20, 2005 8:07 PM
i love you sooo much...you have no idea..well. maybe but no...... thank you for eveyrhtign...i can imagine life without you..........looky what i learned today &hearts &hearts &hearts ...<3 nightnight
ugh i was so happy.
i just wanna feel that way again.
i dont necessarily miss him.
i just miss what we had.
it meant more than anything
and i was so happy.
ill never findanyone to do that for me again.
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[21 Jul 2006|02:07am] |
i love ron johnny pj and nick :]
theyre the best friends everr
youre jealous
goodbye
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[17 Jul 2006|11:13am] |
nothings ever gonna be the same.
the day you walked out was the death of everything we ever had.
you'll walk away,
forget about me,
and ill sit here hung up on you.
you wont even notice im drowning.
youre choking me with your goodbyes.
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[29 Jun 2006|04:26pm] |
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today,
i am hanging out with chantel.
going to the movies.
not seeing terror.
being angry.
IN THAT ORDER.
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[26 Jun 2006|05:07pm] |
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so basically
ive decided to keep this updated.
cause i really dont have many people to talk to.
so yeah.
lately ive been feeling ridiculously lonely.
none of my friends are there for me like they say they are.
and when it comes down to it,
all i can see them doing in the future is hurting me.
i was supposed to go to ny today to see matt,
but my stupid communist douchebag of a mother changed her mind at last minute.
cunt.
so yeah
now im siting here mad lonely.
waiting for someone to prank call me.
and waiting for alex to come over.
gah.
save me.
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[14 May 2006|03:30am] |
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unwind me,
im not hiding.
come back tonight,
come haunt me.
now im falling deeper
as im thinking of you again.
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[11 May 2006|05:12pm] |
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and i'll go
take a walk inside your head
so that i can see your thoughts
i'll try not to hold back
but i'm thinking when you smile
for your blue skies
for those times you felt alive
breathing and softly releasing
i won't let you go.
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[10 May 2006|04:57pm] |
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so im sitting here,
my contact lense is stuck in my eye somewhere.
AND PEOPLE KEEP ASKING ME FOR NUDES.
im gonna scratch my eyes out.
i havent done anything with myself in the past few days,
cause ive been sick.
ive finally finished my comeback kid shirt,
expect pictures later.
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[09 May 2006|05:42pm] |
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everytime i die |
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as of right now,
im sick.
and i dont like it.
come pick me up,
make it better.
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[08 May 2006|06:03pm] |
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IVEBEENSHOT |
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as of right now,
im going with andrea to be her model :]
gonna be a party.
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[07 May 2006|09:38pm] |
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i think i know what you wont tell me.
i think i've got this figured out,
but then you go and change it.
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[06 May 2006|04:11pm] |
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so tonight im going to see circa survive.
im excited.
gonna see all the cool kids i barely ever get to.
YES.
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[05 May 2006|04:11pm] |
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on broken wings |
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i need a ride to see everytime i die.
NOW.
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Time has erased all disbelief, but the tale is the same.
The heartbreak is the same. Fuck.
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